I have wanted to carry the title of singer/songwriter for so long that I don’t think it’s sunk in that I’m actually becoming one now.
I made a goal at the beginning of the year to write at least three songs and record one. I now have three songs written. I have three video recordings of them, and a youtube channel to put them out there.
Part of me can’t believe that I actually have songs, MY songs, written, sung, and put out there to be seen and heard.
It’s scary, overwhelming, exciting, and mind numbing.
I’m having to fight through the lie every time I finish a song that it’s the last one I’ll ever write. Like I’ve used up all the creative energy inside me and I’m all done. I feel I’ve only just started and I hope to continue to chip away at the creative songwriting that lies within.
Here’s one of my three songs. If you feel so inclined, subscribe to my youtube channel.
This is Me
I don’t think I have
The energy for this today
This dream living takes more
Than I thought it would take
Trying to give it my all
And put it all out there
Is a scary thing
The soul is a hard thing to bare
(chorus)
But here I am
And here’s my best
Right here for all to see
Here’s my passion
Here’s my heart
Wide open
This is me
I know that you could
Slam me for sharing all of this
Tell me I’m stupid
For thinking any of it
But there’s a chance
That if I show
You’ll be blessed
If I don’t try we’ll never know
(chorus)
It would be easier to hide
Leave all of this inside
But it would just eat away at me
Make it hard to breathe
(chorus)