My ear issue is not actually an ear issue. It’s a Eustachian tube issue. So glad that’s been cleared up.

Problem is, it’s still a problem. I went to the doctor yesterday, and she checked my ears, nose, throat and all that good stuff. My ears look fine, but I guess my sinuses are clogged a bit. I now have another antibiotic; this one apparently stronger than the first. (More warning labels on this one… yay.) I also had a sinus x-ray done, to make sure there are no other issues going on.

I think this is a problem that will clear up with time, but my doctor was understanding that after a month of this, I’m pretty much done. She’s trying to do all she can to get me feeling better. She said we’re going to pray that this antibiotic does the trick. I know I’m certainly praying.

I’m just tired of feeling tired all the time. Having a head full of sinus fluid really wears you out. I use every ounce of energy during my work week and by the time the weekend rolls around, I’m worthless. After a good night’s sleep, I woke up this morning feeling like I was completely unrested. Drew and I were supposed to go to a barbecue this afternoon, but I am opting out of it. The thought of socializing with lots of people is just too much for me today. Plus, I have to work tomorrow, so I really need some time to rest today.

This whole thing is getting really annoying. I’m tired of sitting still and resting. I haven’t been able to do yoga in over a month because turning my head upside down makes it feel like it might explode. I feel stiff, sore, and grumpy.

I’m trying to keep a positive attitude about all this. The pitiful me inside is just whining and whimpering about another weekend wasted because I’m too tired to do anything fun. I have to remind myself that I am lucky. This is not a debilitating disease that has me bedridden. I have a doctor that is working to help me feel better. I have insurance that helps to pay for these expensive visits and prescriptions. And honestly, it’s a chance to feel more sympathy for those with chronic illness. I don’t know how I’d deal with this if it were an ongoing issue that might not get resolved.

Thanks for letting me rant.