I am home sick today. I’ve tried to push myself as far as I possibly could. I’ve been feeling under the weather and drained for a couple weeks now. Work has been kicking my butt. I hit a point where I knew I just needed a break. I had told my boss this and we had been looking at some possible days I could take off. Then she goes and gets the flu and leaves me at the office alone. The bum. I pushed myself further, trying to cover for her as well as do my job. When my constant tiredness continued to worsen this week, I realized I really needed to just take a sick day before the flu knocked me out too. My boss concurred and practically ordered me to stay home. So here I am, on the couch in my robe with Wake Up with Al in the background.

I might have been able to push it through another day. I felt like I should have, since my boss is still sick and is home herself. Some activities will have to be cancelled, and that’s just the way it has to be. I know certain residents will be annoyed, but quite frankly, my health needs to take precedence right now.

I’ve always hated calling in sick, even back to when I was in school. I could only think of all that I would miss and all the homework I would have to catch up on. Sometimes being sick would just create more work for you. I think that mindset has followed me into my professional life. I just think about all the responsibility I’m not following through with and the people I’m letting down. Then I realize how co-dependent I am being. The more I push myself, the worse it is for me. I am not giving as much of me as I could be. I will end up being way more productive if I just take a day to rest and restore myself.

Sometimes taking that sick day is admitting that we are not as strong as we would like. I think we’d all like to be super-heros, going going going and never feeling tired or sick. That is not the reality. I am weak. I need to realize that.

I am also going to have to fight the urge to do housework today. The point of a sick day is to rest. So… time for some Gilmore Girls.