March, 2010

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How I spent my sunny Saturday

Monday, March 22nd, 2010

Things I noticed on my walk

Tuesday, March 16th, 2010

~ It’s still cold. I still need my jacket.

~ There are a lot of birds in my front yard. I think the neighbor in front of us has a bird feeder to attract them. I want a bird feeder.

~ I should check the mail. A Geico envelope addressed to “car owner” and an advertisement from a realtor for a house for sale in our neighborhood. Man, we got a good deal on our place.

~ The foreclosure down the street sold. Cool.

~ Someone has three scarecrows perched on their fence. Isn’t that more of an autumn theme and not spring?

~ Even though it’s cold, there are still signs of spring. Lots of trees with blooms. Pinks and yellows… fun colors.

~ The birds are really active. Now I really want a bird feeder. I want to sit on the front or back porch in the morning and watch them as I enjoy my coffee.  One of these would really add to the sheer entertainment value.

Sometimes I hate being a girl

Monday, March 15th, 2010

I am a typical girl. A typical, hormonal, overly emotional girl. I cry at Hallmark commercials. And usually feel silly about it. A couple weeks ago, I decided I wanted some new books to read. I attempted to check them out from the library with my nifty little library card that I had gotten last year and had not yet used. I was told that since my mailing address is a UPS store, I had no proof of being a Leon County resident and could not check books out. I had to leave the two books that I have gotten excited over on the counter.

I still wanted books, so I went to Goodwill, and picked out three books, all for under $5. One of them was a thick paperback novel entitled “Firefly Lane.” It looked like a chick lit type book, which I am ashamed to say often draw me in. It also looked like an easy read, which was something I was wanting lately. At the end of the day, I want something a little mindless to read.

I started it the next day, and sure enough, it was an easy read. The author Kristin Hannah doesn’t have an exceptional writing style, although some of her descriptions were kinda cool. “… for once the words were arrows that found no target and clattered uselessly to the ground.” (p. 402) And she has a way of creating realistic, likable characters that draw you in. Some of the topics she covered were relevant; abandonment, insecurity, struggling to fit in, that one elusive dream in your life, and raging codependency.

The story follows two women who are best friends for thirty years, and the rocky road that their friendship sometimes takes. It was often predictable, although I was pleasantly surprised to find that the “single act of betrayal” eluded to on the back cover was not the affair that I was expecting. The last four to five chapters were by far the best. It ends in a predictable way, although still sweet. One of the friends develops breast cancer, and they mend the rift in their friendship during her last few months on earth. It was refreshing that the author chose to highlight a different type of breast cancer, inflammatory breast cancer, that I had never heard of. There was a postscript at the end of the book that talked about looking out for this type of cancer and the warning signs that you may find. Always good to be informed of such things.

So here comes the part of being a girl that I hate. Throughout reading this book, I hadn’t been terribly impressed with it. It was a quick, easy read, and I flew through it pretty quick. I found myself rolling my eyes at parts that I knew were coming or cheesy comments. And yet, during that last chapter, as one of the main characters fades away and dies, and the other friend is left with a sappy note left by her dead friend, I cried. Not just tearing up a bit kind of cry. The I had to put the book down and wipe my eyes kind of cry. At least Drew didn’t walk into the room at that moment.

So sometimes I hate being a girl. But that’s who I am, and that’s how God wired me. So pass the tissues please.

Exhaling

Friday, March 12th, 2010

I ran out of coffee yesterday. I meant to get more, and after a long, tiring day, I forgot all about it. So I got up this morning and panicked. Well, not really. But I was bummed. I had thought that I might go to my favorite coffee shop and get my cup on the way to work, but it’s so not on my way to work anymore. Plus I want to get there earlier so I can have some time to enjoy the atmosphere and mingle a bit with people I know. And my butt was just not moving fast this morning. Hence the need for coffee.

I have a Starbucks gift card still left over from Christmas time, and two Starbucks on the way to work. (Don’t tell my Redeye baristas I was there please.)

I walked in the door to Starbucks and ran smack into the warm, inviting atmosphere. I was transported. A familiar Norah Jones song was playing, and the aroma of that blessed beverage hit my nostrils. All of a sudden, I was back on tour, on my day off. My favorite way to spend my precious free time on tour was in a coffee shop. And because you can’t walk two feet anywhere in this country without finding a Starbucks, I usually ended up in one. With my journal and a good book in tow and a warm, comforting beverage in hand, I could waste hours in a place like this. And leave feeling refreshed.

Unfortunately, this morning, I did not have hours to waste. I had about two minutes on my way to work. But for those two minutes, I reveled in the atmosphere and relaxed a bit. I felt like I exhaled for the first time in months. I mean, really exhaled. I drew in a warm, comforting breath and exhaled out all the gunk that has been piling up on me. And for those few, brief moments, I felt lighter.

I fixed my coffee, and then reluctantly pushed the door open back into the hectic world. I longed to pull up a table or comfy chair and curl up, cradling my 10% recycled material coffee cup. I missed my favorite coffee buddy. Above all, I think I realized how stressed I’ve been lately. I’ve been to coffee shops several times in recent months, and haven’t had that reaction recently. My brain still equates coffee shops with rest time. I think I need to take that time. I’m way overdue.