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My very first song all by myself

Thursday, March 15th, 2012

I’ve posted recently how I’ve been longing to pursue songwriting for some time. I have dabbled in it and have co-written songs with a friend in the past. I loved the whole process of working through words that were mine and fitting it together with the music. And the final project of singing something that no one else had ever sung was mighty cool.

But I still had a goal in the back of my mind that I wanted to write a song all by myself. Co-writing is way fun and I’d definitely love to collaborate with more musicians in the future, but there was something about sitting down and writing something all on my own. I felt that I couldn’t do it for years because I didn’t think I possessed the musicianship to do it. After reading Quitter, attending the Quitter conference, and receiving some much needed encouragement and butt kicking from a fellow musician, I found that I was wrong. I do possess the musicianship to write my own song.

So I did it.

I’ve actually written two so far, and I may be ready to share the other one shortly, but for now, I’ll share this first one. I posted it on my other blog this morning. It was way scary uploading it to Youtube. I am way nervous about some mean person stumbling across it and writing some cruel comments. Drew even expressed concern over that. He made me burst out laughing last night when he said, “I don’t want you to be awake at night, crying, ‘Pumpkinhead427 doesn’t like my song!'” I told him if I received any criticism I’d remember pumpkinhead and laugh.

I am coming to grips with the fact that I am just starting out with songwriting, so of course they’re not going to be great. And that’s okay. They’ll get better as I write more (I hope…)

And sharing it is all part of the process. So, here it is. Lyrics below the video.

You Are

You are real
You are more than what I feel
You are
You are

You are more than a song
You are peace when all is wrong
You are
You are

(chorus)
You are perfection
You’re my direction
I want You to be all I need
You are consuming
You are moving
Come be all I need

You are all I want to want
You are all that haunts me
You are
You are

(chorus)

You are why I live
Or at least You should be
You are strength when I have nothing left to give
You are the best of me

(chorus out)

Quitter Conference #2

Wednesday, February 22nd, 2012

A couple of weekends ago, I attended the second Quitter conference in Nashville. It’s a conference given by Jon Acuff and it’s all about pursuing your dream job while working your day job. I went to the first conference in July of last year and loved it. His book, Quitter, along with the conference gave me practical ideas to work toward pursuing my dream. I walked away from the first conference energized and ready to work.

And then life happened and I got sucked dry.

When I saw the second conference advertised, I begged (okay, maybe I just casually asked, but inside I was pleading) Drew to let me go again. He joked, “What, you couldn’t get it all the first time?” I smiled and told him the main reason I wanted to return was to make connections with fellow dreamers and hopefully get some accountability. I work better when I know someone’s going to check up on me.

He consented, and even drove me up there. We stayed in a nice hotel and even got a fun weekend away out of it.

I didn’t think the conference could get much better, but it did. Instead of one day, it was a day and a half, and they squeezed a lot into that time. Here were some of the highlights for me:

  • Dealing with fear: Fear is an indicator, like a metal detector. When it goes off, it means you’re doing something that matters.
  • Your identity is not up for grabs with the decisions you make with your dream.
  • Failing is okay, and even expected. If you’re doing something you’ve never done before, you’re not going to be great. Period. Fail, and fail gloriously!
  • Murder perfectionism and enjoy the A-.
  • Pursue your dream before you’re ready. Don’t wait to feel ready. You’ve got to start somewhere.
  • Give yourself permission to be bad at something. Don’t peak on page one.
  • Critic’s math: 1,000 compliments + 1 insult = 1 insult. Don’t obsess over that one and miss all the other good stuff happening.
  • You need a plan. It needs to be flexible and it doesn’t need to be perfect.
  • If you’re going to use morning time to work on your dream, that starts the night before. Get enough sleep, and plan what you’re going to work on ahead of time.
  • Match the right energy level to the right activity. If you’re low energy, don’t try to do a high energy task. And, if you’re high energy, don’t waste it doing a low energy task.
  • To fuel a dream with ideas, you need to imagine, capture, and execute.
  • During imagine time, it’s time to generate ideas, not perfect them. Ask “later you” to be awesome. Ask “today you” to be productive.
  • Rest and hard work go together. You need times to get empty and just chill. (Phew…)
  • Don’t live a lottery ticket kind of life. Don’t be “rescued” by your dream.
  • Be present. Don’t miss the joys in the here and now.

In addition to all the great content and ideas I walked away with, I connected with several people while there. I walked out with four women’s contact info and have been in touch with each of them. Just having someone that can relate to where you’re at is a huge help. PLUS, I ran into someone from my town. That was an unexpected blessing. We traded contact info and are meeting for coffee in a few weeks.

It was truly awesome to walk around that room and talk with so many different people, all with huge dreams and passions. One was hoping to start some sort of program that would help missionaries returning from the field to connect back into society. Another wanted to be a teacher. Another boldly proclaimed he wanted to be a magician.

For me, for now, I am continuing to write, blog, and work on my music. I have half a song completed, and I am working to finish it up. Although every day isn’t hugely productive, it feels good to take a few baby steps closer.

Decaffeinated me

Thursday, February 16th, 2012

On January 1st of this year, I decided to cut caffeine out of my system. Well, I cut caffeinated coffee out. I still have the occasional block of dark chocolate, but the caffeine in that is minimal, so I don’t count it.

I decided to do this because:

  • I’m tired of being tired all the time.
  • I’m tired of not feeling well most days.
  • I’m tired of being one of those people who can’t function without their cup of coffee.

I decided that cutting out caffeine would be a good place to start.

I expected it to be rough. I knew there would likely be a headache and my body begging and pleading for it’s daily fix. I weaned myself off slowly in the week leading up to it, and that definitely helped. I did have a bit of a headache and some jitters the day I quit, but not as bad as I expected. So then I sat back and waited for the glorious results to emerge.

It’s not working.

I don’t know how long this is supposed to take, but it’s been six weeks and I still have no glorious results.

  • I’m still tired all the time.
  • I still don’t feel great most days.
  • I can at least function without my daily fix, albeit grudgingly.

What the heck? I know it’s not a magical, overnight fix, but c’mon already. I’d love to have at least a little bit of energy here. I still have to drag myself out of bed in the morning, only now there’s no coffee to look forward to. Misery, I tell you, misery.

I can honestly say I am feeling no better than when I was on caffeine. I am very close to giving up and going back on caffeine. If I’m going to be miserable, it might as well include my morning cup of bliss.

People keep telling me things like, “It will all be worth it in the long run!” Maybe so, but I’d love to see SOME short term relief.

Anyone know how long this whole process takes? Someone told me six weeks, so I’ve tried it that long. Still nothing. *grumble*

Things making me happy this morning

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012
  1. Smell of my Roiboos tea.
  2. Sound of the heat running.
  3. Feel of fleece pjs on my skin.
  4. Taste of Rooboos tea and a slight touch of honey on my tongue.
  5. Sight of my handmade bunny from Em.

He needs a name. Any suggestions?