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What the heck?

Thursday, January 13th, 2011

I sometimes wonder what my mind and my body are doing. I know everyone has some weird dreams, but sometimes mine just confuse me. Never remembering details of dreams, I was surprised to wake up this morning and still have lingering details of one dream still shaking around in my head. I sat down and wrote it out before I forgot it.

I was walking outside in my hometown when all of a sudden it started to snow. It started out like it does when we do get snow; little flakes that disappear almost before you can see them. With cupped hands, I started to collect some of the flakes. Then I noticed it was collecting around my feet. Pretty soon there was an inch or more on the ground. Full of excitement, I began trying to make snowballs. They were too dry to really stick and fell apart in my hands. I thanked God for the fluffy flakes of white snow all around me. I was smiling, laughing, and playing. The snowballs began to stick. I began to make some sort of large soccer goal to throw my snowballs at. Someone showed up and helped me make the goal. He stood in the goal like a soccer goalie while I threw snowballs toward him. What fun!

Then, out of nowhere, I plunged through ice into water and was sucked down and down and down. I couldn’t swim. I was powerless. I could hear my screams echoing in my head as I groggily forced myself awake.

What the heck? Where did my winter wonderland go? I was having so much fun and then THAT? Where did my brain come up with that? Any dream analysts out there?

Christmas over… officially

Monday, January 10th, 2011

Since I am such a Christmas-aholic, taking down Christmas is one of my least favorite things to do. Growing up, New Year’s Day was my most disliked day of the year, because it was the day that everything Christmas was taken down, packed up, and put away. I’d mope around all day, because the house looked so barren.

When I became an adult, with a house of my own, I decided I wanted to keep my Christmas tree up until Epiphany. Drew agreed, knowing that sitting by the lit up Christmas tree made me so happy.

Now, even I will agree that those icicle lights hanging off my neighbor’s house in February is just plain tacky. I’m a little ashamed of the year that Drew and I left the tree up until February. When we were trying to decide whether to take it down or simply hang little hearts on it, I knew it was time. We didn’t leave it there intentionally. We simply got consumed by life and had no time to get the thing down. Good thing it was a fake tree. Since then, I’ve been determined to get the decorations down as close to Epiphany as possible.

I had every intention of getting the tree down this weekend. I swear. On Saturday, I was ready to break out the bins and the broom and get the living room tidied up. But then Drew found a car in Valdosta that was exactly what we were looking for (we’ve been looking to replace my car, as it’s been breaking apart little by little and I’m convinced it will implode at any moment). We decided to take a drive, loved the car, and ended up buying it. Yay for us, but that made for a late night, and by the time we got home, I didn’t have any energy to tackle the tree.

Sunday, we spent all day at a friend’s house for her “coming out” party. She is bravely tackling cancer, and undergoing chemo. When her hair began to fall out, she decided it was time to shave it all off. We all gathered and watched as she sat in the barber’s chair and let all her hair be shaved off with a huge smile on her face. We cheered her on, other friend’s shaved their heads in honor of her, and we laughed at the mohawks and other fun hairstyles that were created. We tried on wigs and hats and even blew off fireworks. Great day, but again, we didn’t get home until late.

To find this.

Our tree bit the dust. Drew almost tripped over it as we came in the door, commenting, “What the hell…” I looked at him and said, “We don’t even have a cat.”

Upon further investigation we discovered one of the snap on legs had simply snapped off. It decided it was done with it’s service for the year. And although it was late and I was tired, I set to taking the ornaments off and un-decorating the tree. Drew had to hold it up so I could get the lights off. Then he chucked it out the front door, proclaiming, “Piece of crap!”

Sadly, there was one casualty.

One of my treasured, handmade, porcelain ornaments from my Aunt Char was beheaded. This one is from 1985 and has hung on every tree since then. Luckily, it was a clean break, and I think with a little super glue, she’ll be good as new. I breathed a sigh of relief to see that the other porcelain ornaments had been hung on the side opposite of the fall, and were thus cushioned by fake pine tree limbs.

Luke Skywalker did fall out of his legs, but it appears that he slides right back in his boots. Drew was relieved.

So Christmas is officially packed up and put away… aside from the odds and ends I keep finding. I have a feeling I’ll be repacking the totes to make everything fit this weekend.

After the “trauma” from last night, I did get a good laugh last night as I revisited with these guys.

My musical resolution

Saturday, January 8th, 2011

I have one more resolution to add to my list. Perhaps it’s foolish to add more and it will simply set me up for failure. But I think my resolutions have been simple and obtainable. This last resolution is a musical one.

I’m not going to aim at becoming a guitar virtuoso. I’m simply going to attempt to try the things I’ve been afraid of and have continually found a way around.

I’m going to stop running from barre chords.

Here goes nothing.

Waiting

Wednesday, January 5th, 2011

“There are times when you cannot understand why you cannot do what you want to do. When God brings the blank space, see that you do not fill the void.”

– Oswald Chambers

I hate waiting. I try to be patient, but honestly, I am an impatient person. So often I get that little kid mentality of “I want this and I want it now!” As a Christian, I know that God’s ideas are often different from mine, and that it often involves waiting for something better. Sometimes I’ll think I know better and will try to rush ahead and force something that seems like it will work but in the end is not such a good idea.

I think I need to remind myself of some things that have been well worth the wait.

– Marriage. So worth the wait. Sure, I could have married at an earlier age, to the wrong person, and I wouldn’t be enjoying the marital bliss I am now. Waiting was definitely the way to go.

– A job offer right after college. I didn’t get that. I applied and looked and applied and just didn’t find anything. What I did stumble upon was an offer to travel with the African Children’s Choir, one of the best experiences of my life. A job offer could wait.

– Our house. We actually got this in a pretty short time, but it felt like forever. We had a couple different houses that we could have jumped on, but would not have been as good as the house we ended up with. When we wanted to just buy something already, we both realized we needed to wait just a little longer. So glad we did.

Waiting never seems so bad on the flip side. I need to remind myself of that when it starts to suck.